Walking in Faith

 

  "Faith is our unshakable belief in God, His Word, and His character. True faith stands above and beyond the trouble and triumphs of life. When life demolished Job, it did not demolish his faith. If trouble demolishes our faith, it shows that our faith is only a faith for protection, peace, and pleasure—a shallow, selfish faith(Stowell, 2006)."  Life has taken a major turn here, my faith will not be shaken, for I know your plan is bigger than anything I could ever imagine. Your purpose so much more divine than anything I could possibly dream.  I pray you cover us Lord, because I am so in need of peace from this Hell we are living.
  Many people think that mental illness is not a big deal, reality is unless you have lived it, you will never fully understand the earth shattering chaos it brings to the family. The unanswered questions as to why, I know they know better? What changed to the core of them that they can no longer be rational in their thinking? Mental illness, for some may be considered an evil spirit that has taken possession, and I could understand that and to some extent agree. From personal experience nothing good comes from this illness, it is a living nightmare. Until one is truly exposed to the heart ache, chaos, never ending struggle just to function daily,it is hard to comprehend.
 I would not wish this on anyone and I pray you never have to know these feelings.
 This seems to sum up our life these days, and I know as seek God in this storm, there is a lesson to learn, another story to be told, and a reason he chose us to experience this right now. I know I am not being punished, but rather being educated so that one day maybe I can help someone else. His grace covers us, and I know that he will also see us through this, "I want to have an attitude of Gratitude,even when it the pain is so deep and the hurt seems to never end. Sometimes I feel as if I am never going to catch my breath again, or the pain in my chest is going to explode because my heart is so broken. But I also know nothing is permanent except our all mighty Heavenly Father,  I still give God the glory and "Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.(James 1:2-4)"